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Also, 

I get to spend like 18 hours in Germany! I have an 11 hour layover in Germany getting to South Africa and a 6 hour layover in Germany coming back to Georgia. This trip really is a once in a lifetime opportunity that I’m so grateful to have the opportunity to actually go and be a part of.

My wildest dreams are coming true and I’d have to say it’s all because of Warnell, my fantastic school, and my boyfriend, Adam. Where would I be without these two in my life?

SO I’m going to South Africa in a month and a day. This is blowing my mind. But what is even more crazy and insane is that Adam has been the reason that I could even do this. He bought me a hiking pack, a camelback, a rain cover, and oh yea my 2 grand flight to get over there. The fact that he’s supporting me this much, almost brings me to tears, if I had tear ducts. Just knowing that someone trusts and loves me enough to send me away to Africa for a month really means a lot to me.

The last time I went out of the country, my then boyfriend lost his damn mind. He thought I cheated on him in the 6 days that I spent with my aunt and uncle in Paris. 6 days attached to the hip of my aunt, and I had time to go spread my legs through Paris. Uhh. negative. So knowing that Adam doesn’t even have a doubt about me leaving the country for an entire month says that he actually trusts me and know what kind of girl I am. (Which would be one that despises anyone who cheats on someone they’re in a relationship with, and who thinks cheating is just plain awful to begin with).

Back to the main picture.. I’m GOING TO AFRICA!

I’m making big changes in my life. I’m moving in with my boyfriend, regardless of what the family says. It’s happening. I’m getting my belly button pierced. I’m making final plans for the next tattoo. I’m going to eat in so that I can afford to dye my hair. I’m going to get myself a crown cause not everyone know I’m a princess. I’m taking control of my life and directing it exactly where I want it to go. 

Professors threatening to drop me from class cause I fell asleep, I don’t think so. 

Fisheries exam threatening to ruin my Monday, I don’t think so.

Spatial Lab that I haven’t even started threatening to ruin my mornings, I don’t think so. 

Issues with roommates threatening to make living here difficult. I ain’t having it.

I got my boy, my turkey burgers with ketchup, my nine days worth of music, my friends, my rugby team, my dog, and my dreams. 

I’m FUCKING invincible. Bring it on world. 

You wanna know the worst part? No matter how much I hate you tonight, come morning I’ll love you again. 

It’s like my skin is craving the pain, craving the burn.

This morning when I went back to sleep instead of studying for my test today I had a horrifying nightmare. I’m talking I cut out my own tongue. It was excruciating pain and was pouring out blood but I couldn’t stop. It was just awful.

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When you say you miss someone.. someone you’ve lost, people always say it’ll get easier, it’ll get better. Well they lie. It does not get better. It only gets worse. There are days when you feel like you can handle it; it’s only because you’ve forgotten about them. But then something happens, you see something or smell something that reminds you of them; or something makes you laugh and you want to turn and tell them about it so they can laugh too. Only you turn and they aren’t there and then you realize they’ll never be there again. Then your whole world crashes, your heart gets squeezed, your lungs don’t work and you panic. You panic because you don’t know what to do, don’t know what can be done, and then you realize that nothing can be done at all. And that’s the hardest part, knowing I will never laugh with you ever again in my life. And that kills me a little bit every day. 

I’m becoming quite bored. With everything. Every aspect of my life bores me at this exact moment. I guess this means bleach, hair dye, a new tattoo? I dunno. But something has to change soon, or else I’ll loose my mind. 

Mum,

Just because I leave for college for four years, doesn’t mean that I don’t know my own family. Stop talking to me like I don’t know my own brother. K?

thanks,

your daughter.